Friday, December 14, 2007

A Bit About Me

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Holly!

  1. Ancient Chinese artists would never paint pictures of Holly.
  2. Reindeer like to eat Holly.
  3. Holly was originally green, and actually contained cocaine.
  4. Holly is only six percent water.
  5. The National Heart Foundation recommends eating Holly at least three times a week!
  6. Most bottles and jars contain at least twenty-five percent recycled Holly.
  7. Only fifty-five percent of men wash their hands after using Holly!
  8. Half a cup of Holly contains only seventeen calories.
  9. The International Space Station weighs about 500 tons and is the same size as Holly!
  10. It takes 17 muscles to smile, and 43 to frown at Holly.
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My friend Jaynee had this on her MySpace page and I put in my name and found out the trivia about myself! You can type almost anything in and find out more about it! Put in your name, or your favorite color - whatever floats your cookie!

Thursday, December 6, 2007

Institute Boys - Part IV

Ok, so you have heard about how wonderful Tom is, you have heard about how much of a flirt he is and finally, you have heard about how he told me just recently that he has a girlfriend... and girls are supposed to be complicated?

So, yesterday was the last day of Institute and I was really surprised to see that Tom wasn't there. When the role came around I looked at his attendance history, which anyone can look at, and I saw that besides today, he had been to every single class from the beginning. So even though I decided that I am not going to pursue him it bothered me that he wasn't there. It wasn't like him to not come to institute. So then I started worrying about how maybe he was working on another assignment, or he was consoling some other needy girl. I sent him a text asking him where he was and it wasn't until 15 minutes before the end of class that he finally showed up.

Somewhat annoyed, somewhat relieved to see him I passed him a note, asking him where he had been and sure enough, he was settling problems between three of his admirers and his girlfriend. Apparently a cat fight had broken out just outside of the Wal-Mart where he works – since they had all come to see him at the same time... This doesn't surprise me in any way... I wonder if he likes that kind of attention.

Anyhow, after class, I was curious to know more about what happened with the girls. I relish a good cat fight story. ;) I should have just walked out. I don't get it, there is just something about him that draws me to him, some little quirk of his... So inevitably, we walked out of the class together, I was walking somewhat in front of him, as I didn't really want to walk next to him, if that tells you anything. We stopped at the balcony that overlooks the common area entrance and we looked at the view.

I had had a tough day, and I didn't feel good that day. So I suppose that it was me feeling a bit sick that caused some of the negative thoughts I was having that day. He was staring at me again, and he said to tell him what was wrong. Well, I didn't want to... there are just some things that don't need to be spoken about and there are some things that guys don't need to know about. But no! He pushed me and pushed me to tell him what was wrong with me.

My problem is that I get caught up in his kindness and sweetness, that it isn't until afterwards that I realize what I could have done to just get out of the situation. He is so freakin' confusing to me! He flirts with me, he was trying to tickle me yesterday – which purely annoyed me. He compliments me, saying that I am adorable and beautiful and that no man will ever be worthy of me. As much as I want to believe him and as much as I know that he is probably right, why is he, of all people, telling me this?

He has a handful of other girls after him and his own girlfriend to worry about. I don't like how he sacrifices his time that he could be working on things that he needs to get done – for example, his 6 page essay that he was supposed to be working on – and he talks to me why? Why does he even care about me if he already has a girlfriend, why does he take the time, when I know the he knows that I would rather that he would do what he needs to do other than what he feels obligated to do. Even though I know he is just trying to help, I didn't want his help, I don't like feeling like a pity project, just another one of his needy girls...

I think the thing that I don't like about him the most is that I feel like I am powerless when he is around me, like I have no say, that he is always right and why should I talk... he already knows what is wrong. Like yesterday, he looked into my eyes, even though they were diverted from his, and he told me how I was feeling and who I am and what I need, what I want – all in a general sense, but at the same time, it was like he was looking into my eyes and reading my thoughts. It is creepy! He brought many of the things that I have tried to push down and away up to the surface of my thoughts and I didn't like it! I felt intimidated and violated by it. He overwhelms me with so many different feelings that I felt like I was going to pass out after he left.

Anyway, I have talked with a few of you about this already... I am sort of glad that I won't have to see him again. He stressed me out too much.

Your comments are appreciated!
Love you all!

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Going Back to New York - Again!!!

Well readers, it has happened again! I was accepted to go to the Hill Cumorah Pageant again! Last time, before I left, I posted a small tidbit here on Xanga, here is the link. I can't believe it! Last year's experience was so wonderful and amazing. I guess I never posted much about it here on Xanga. My sister took good notes and journal entries, so I will have to go back into my journal and hers and see if I can compile something for you guys to read about my experience there. Last year there were 1403 applicants for HCP and only 635 were accepted and my sister and I were two of them! This year there were 1505 applicants for HCP and only 680 were accepted and again, my sister and I are two of them!!! I believe that my sister and I are really lucky, because both times there were only about 1/3 of all applicants accepted.

Chrissy already has the trip planned out and from what she has told me, (several times) is that we will take I-80 straight until we are east enough to drive up into Canada, at which time we will go to Niagra Falls again so we can buy our rain ponchos, which worked wonderfully during the rainy practices. After the pageant is over we want to either fly to New York City or Washington D.C. She kept good track of what all we need for this year and what we don't need. (We packed too many clothes last year.) I think that, again, we will probably be gone for all of July since we have to be there for the 4th and we leave HCP on the 20th.

Anyway... I have so much to tell you guys! I am so excited!

I will be posting more later as I have time. PTYL

PS - To see more on this post please click on the Title of this post - it will take you to the original post.

Monday, December 3, 2007

Institute Boys - Part III

The News on Tom:
Alrighty you guys, to those of you who have been keeping tabs on the 'ship between Tom and I, I have some news for you. Between talking to him last Friday and today, I have found out what his intentions are.
Tom is the sort of guy who enjoys being selfless, it is his mission to care about others, particularly girls. He admits that in the apartment complex where he lives that he is the unofficial social worker. Basically, after putting in a long day at school and working until nearly midnight at Wal-Mart, he usually gets calls and texts from needy girls, wanting his help, sometimes they will show up on his doorstep as well.
Last night for example, a group of girls who are all very close friends started fighting over Tom and they failed to realize, as I did, that he has a girlfriend. So he was in the middle of all of these girls fighting over him and he wanted to fix it, so he stayed up until four o'clock in the morning, talking to one girl, then the other, and then another. He finished up his social-worker-therapy-sessions with his girlfriend, who apparently has suffered some serious abdominal trauma. Please don't get the wrong idea here; he snuck over to her house, just so he could hold her and try to ease any pain that she was experiencing.
I was shocked to hear that he had a girlfriend, because he outright flirts with me. I asked him about this and he said that he is just a flirt, that is the way he behaves around most girls. My chats with him did not come without some flirtation on his part, he proceded to take off my hat not once, but two times and the second time he proceded to muss my hair, which I found somewhat humiliating.
Anyway, readers, Tom is taken and I am not persuing him, so I think this will be the last time that I talk about him on here. I hope that this post answers all of your questions because I don't want to rehash them again.

I think that is all of the major news to be posted. I will PTYL

You are welcome to post a comment about what is here or whatever, have a great day readers!